lundi 26 juin 2017

Ma version de "What I Know Now : Letter to my Younger Self" d'Ellen Spragins.

Musiq Soulchild feat Ledisi - Settle For My Love ♫♫♫

Hello les Ry-ders,

(Oui oui, voici votre nouveau surnom)
Comment vous portez-vous ? Pour ma part, je me porte à ravir.
Cela n'était pas le cas lorsque j'ai commandé What I know Now : Letter to my Younger Self d'Ellen Spragins sur Amazon UK. 

En commandant ce livre, j'étais dans une période durant laquelle j'avais la sensation que les décisions que j'avais prises n'étaient pas les bonnes, je m'interrogeais négativement sur mes interactions avec autrui, je mettais en exergue tout ce qui n'allait pas et me sentais tout bonnement coincée dans mon existence. Puis, j'ai profité que le grand frère m'achète Jelly (ma nouvelle carte mémoire) pour glisser la recommandation littéraire d'Alicia Keys faite sur Instagram dans mon panier.

À la réception du bouquin, j'ai aimé la manière dont l'auteure, Ellyn Spragins a, pour chaque femme qui a accepté de la rencontrer et d'écrire une lettre à sa personne à un âge bien donné, résumé son existence avec passion et admiration ; leurs rencontres et la contextualisation de l'écriture de cette lettre à CE moment précis de la vie d'autrui.

©FMD

Il y a des mots qui emplissent le coeur de joie, qui font du baume à l'âme, répandent l'allégresse et la quiétude. Et j'ai ressenti cela au fil de ma lecture. Je me suis reconnue dans ces périodes de trouble, de doutes, d'inquiétudes, de frustrations, de désespoir. J'ai admiré également la sagesse de ces femmes qui sont passées par des moments dramatiques, embarrassants, déstabilisants, frustrants pouvant être considérés comme humiliants, difficiles, complexes.

Combinée au livre 20 Something, 20 Everything, j'ai compris que je n'avais pas à réussir tout et tout de suite, aller partout rapidement, faire une overdose de plans qui s'empilent dans le dossier "Fiches de projets" sans réalisations concrètes. Aucun événement ne devrait me presser en ce qui concerne ma vie, personne ne devrait me faire ressentir que je ne vais pas assez vite.

Alors, je vais vous livrer MA version de ma lettre à ma personne plus jeune avec une introduction à ma personne, ma rencontre avec moi-même ET la fameuse lettre. En anglais. Je continue d'apprendre, soyez indulgents.

France Marielle Dandila is a young 23-years-old woman, passionate about a lot of things and doing probably as much in her life. Her parents, Congolese citizens came to France in the 1980's and became French in the 1990's. They gave to her and her sisters all they could and insisted on the importance of school and independance as a woman in this world.

She started a Political Science and Sociology License, she obtained it in 2012 and against the parental approuval she decided to make a gap year. During this gap year, she was supposed to save money, get a scholarship and leave the house to become independant. 

Unfortunately, things didn't get well and she didn't get the Master education she wanted, she stayed at the family house and she did a postgraduate degree that she dislikes hardly. During this year, she had to work in a part time, lost more than 2/3 of his salary and her driving license supposed to be obtain in 3 months is still something that she has to pass.

She is a hard worker, she is reliable and sociable but sometimes she has this feeling that she is suffering too much for nothing or something close. This letter is to her, during May 2017, for remind her that life is not about counting our wounds, failures and think that it will never pass.


" Dear Love,

I know this time is hard for you. Even if you didn't feel your tears on your cheeks, tears was inside you for several weeks with the all Sadness start pack. You have to realize that be in charge of you life doesn't mean that you decide about all is going to happen. We face life like Amazons, with grace and strenght.

You love studying, learn and obtain high grade. I also know that you hate fail, make bad choices and regret your decision. Even if this year, back to school wasn't what you expected, I'm proud of you, my dear.

You came back, you miss few courses only, you started to learn Swahili, you took courses of Subsaharian Cinema and even you disliked History major since the very beginning of this master, you learnt a lot about sources, the way historian are writing history and it will help you in what you're doing.

Don't rush, keep learning how to be more patient, do things step by step and fulfully. If you don't feel the wish to do something, if you heard your inner voice to tell you that risk is valuable, do it. Listen you more, love you again and again and never put on top things exhausting, without interest for you no matter the reason.

Today, even if you have so many people in your life who bring you love, share, laughs and positive things, YOU ARE YOUR ONE AND ONLY. Doing wrong, doesn't mean that you are worthless. So please, my dear, accept that you are human with your weaknesses. They don't prevent you to be this amazing human being who cares about people, encourage them and love them for who they are.

With tenderness and my deep Love,
Yourself."
Signé Ryel

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